His Presence is Here… but I’m Not.

This first week in Haiti has been hard, just like in the D.R.

This month is different though. I can hear God’s voice more clearly, and His presence is more known. However, going into this month I knew it was going to be harder. Spending more time with another team and less time as a team was something I was worried about. I love all the people on my squad so much, but I was honestly hoping for a month with just my team.

Something that I’ve had to grow in while being here is being intentional about my time. Being around community 24/7 is the most difficult and challenging thing for me. I need my alone time. I need to have that time to think, to gather myself together, and to make sure I am in the best mood I can be in to do ministry. So through this time of being around everyone, I have learned to be more engaged and more intentional. And also allowing the Lord to bring me that strength to push through the day.

I will admit though that I was not in the best mood for the past week. I could have at least hid that a lot better than what I did show. To be upset, not smiling, and even just a grump, were a few things I know I felt… and I know I showed a lot.

This month has also been hard for me in terms of not being at home. This month last year, my Grandma passed away, and even though we grieved then… I still feel like I haven’t grieved fully. There are certain aspects I feel this month that has brought my attention to her memories. Being around the Matthew 25 houses’ elderly and their singing, to be specific.

I don’t think I will break down… but I definitely think it has affected my mood. BUT I do honestly love Haiti and the people here.

The Lord has shown me so much of his strength through the people of Haiti, and there is a lot of His strength and love to still be spread throughout the nation.

Ephesians 6: 10-12

“Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. Put on the whole armour of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places…”

That whole part in Ephesians has been a go to scripture this month.

Anyways, that is all for now. Thank you family and friends for keeping Haiti in your prayers. I truly believe that God brought us here because of all of you. THANK YOU!